Bored and Ready for the Next Adventure..

I have to admit it, I'm bored.

I guess you could call me a change addict, I get restless and antsy whenever I have to do the same thing for too long, or somehow feel like I'm stuck.

I know this probably makes me some sort of weirdo, after all, doesn't everyone want stability and routine? I mean don't get me wrong, I like all those things too, but once I master something I'm ready to move on to something else.

Call it an endless quest for adventure, or a thirst for knowledge, or artistic flair, or short attention span, I'm sure psychologists would have another fancy term for it too and tell me it has something to do with my childhood.

As I grow older I'm realizing that its a strength and not a weakness of character or being flaky. See I'm a dreamer. I get big ideas and am game to try anything. Couple that with a love of travel, and not wanting to miss out on everything this life has to offer, and now you are starting to understand me a little better. I like to think that I ask why not instead of why. Obviously this does not happen in every situation because I am at the same time practical and like to make a plan. So I dream it, then figure out how to make it happen.

All that to say I am getting antsy again. We have been living in Australia for 4 years now (I'm an American girl born and raised). Its feeling like home now and and we are settled and happy. We bought a house last year and I have been working at my current job for 2 years now (one of my longest jobs ever due to the getting bored factor). We have good friends and go to a good church. I feel like I have ticked all the boxes and am now a responsible adult.

But I keep having daydreams of selling up flying off into the sunset to backpacking through South America for 6 months to learn Spanish fluently, or my ears perk up when I hear the neighbor talking about moving to Turkey where property is cheap to buy and manage an apartment block. Live on a sailboat, eat my way through India, open a surf eco resort on the Solomon Islands, be a backpacker tour guide in Europe, open an Internet cafe in Costa Rica; there are just so many options that are running through my mind.

And none of them are the responsible, work a boring job and pay off your mortgage type of life. And the problem with this type of life is that the longer you are in it, the more dependent you become to it. You start comparing yourself to your friends and are suddenly buying a bigger tv or a nicer house which in turn means bigger debt or bills and a greater dependency on that boring job. You live for the weekends and vacations when you get a little bit of time off to relax before its back to work again. That doesn't sound to me like the way to spend the next 30 years of my life.

So I guess this is when you have to ask yourself, what do you really want in life?

My husband worries that I don't commit to things and says that its all well and good to dream big, but that I can't just quit something when it stops being fun. I know he's right (and thats why we are such a good team because he keeps me grounded) but where is the line? How do you know if your just scared to go out on a limb and try something crazy or if your being practical and making a smart decision?

One of my biggest fears is getting to the end of my life and finding out that I had a huge amazing destiny planned out for me that I was too afraid to go after, and instead settled for an average life of just getting by.

So I don't know what the answer is. Maybe I just need a vacation, or a new hobby or job. Maybe I need to figure out what I really want in life and chase after it like crazy, because time keeps passing you by, and unless your last name is also the name of a worldwide hotel chain you have to work hard to get anywhere in this life.

What do you think? Anyone know what I'm talking about or been there done that?