Having to say no again!

Horrible, horrible evening! I heard from my daughter again tonight.She only contacts/texts me when she wants me to take her shopping and declines any sort of invitation to come and see us and declines any request for us to go and visit her. I feel awful. I have enough money to buy food for the month and to get to work and back for a month. If I deviate and buy more than the budgetted amount of food, then I can't afford the diesel and vice versa.

This is the second contact since the summer break and on both occasions it has been when I haven't been able to give her any money. I'm sure she thinks that I'm being spiteful and her dad (my ex) thinks I'm 'missing an opportunity' and in his words he'd 'find the money'. Well, I looked down the back of the sofa, which is the only place I might find 10p and there wasn't any money! Having no spare money week after week is just dreadful and now I'm wringing out the guilt that I went shopping for the first time since 2008 and bought new clothes. I had made her soap and jam and a scarf for Christmas but I think I will be walking funny after she tells me to stuff them up my a*** as I don't think the little I have to give her will cut it! Oh f***! what a horrible day!